Feeling Better Today

I am feeling much less overwhelmed today than I did yesterday.  I have applies for temporary medicaid for pregnant women.  That takes a large load off my shoulders because I learned my insurance wasn't going to cover the appointment to learn how to do the insulin and to learn how to eat right.  This seriously frustrated and disappointed me because my baby's life is at stake if I can't get my blood sugar under control and I can't just be aimlessly injecting myself when I don't know how!  Now I am sure the medicaid will cover these appointments and more!  Such a relief!!!  I have been adding to my baby registry.  If anyone wants to look at it through babysrus.com name Rebekah Cross.  I started this registry a few weeks before I knew I was pregnant.

Some days I just don't feel pregnant.  I read on thebump forums though that there are many women who feel this way who are as far along as I am so I am not going to worry about anything until the Dr tells me otherwise and she didn't seem to have any need for concern at my appointment other than the blood sugar which I must say even without the insulin yet is doing quite well I think.  I don't remember if I mentioned it but I stopped taking metformin for a while.  Then the dr said that can increase my chances of a miscarriage so I rethought that decision and started taking it again.  I really do think it helps with my blood sugar, that and diet.  She has me checking it five times a day!  I hate doing it, I hate poking myself, and I don't see how I will ever be able to inject myself with insulin.  I know its for the babies own good but I have such a hard time just sticking myself to test my sugar.  I guess I need prayers that I will be able to do this that God will give me the strength to inject the insulin.  I am very apprehensive about this!  I have my appointment to learn how to do this tomorrow.  James is planning on going with me.  I am a little scared!